I spent some time digging in the eaves on Sunday morning – some old artwork I’d had a hand in might be presented to the world as part of a larger project. It was something I played an ancilliary role in producing, but it’s me who has the original artwork, so my responsibility – no A3 scanner though, so no way to get a good copy – I have one copy of the comic, but cannot find others, so only half. Must be somewhere, but I’m vague on things like this.
It seems I’m mildly being pushed toward comics again – something I would like to be more ‘doing’, but oddly I do find I put up internal barriers – a little procrastination here and there. I was hoping to get some technology sorted out (Windows tablet with proper pressure sensitive pen) – this sort of thing always jollies me along – but I’ve been frustrated and thwarted on this level – disappointed, leaving me sending back things purchased as not working as advertised. Still… that will come, it will. Technology wise I have to rely on my phone, as there’s always someone (invariably Jude) at the computer doing things (uh… Minecraft) so I don’t get a look in. To impose myself on what’s considered the ‘family computer’ means dying by a thousand ‘huffs’ and ‘sighs’. So now my laptop broke, I have just the phone that I can say is ‘mine’ and I need to use to this to get something done. Very personal computer, this (at least) doesn’t get shared. So this new (failed, returning) device was meant to replace the laptop – I had high hopes it would meet one of my main criteria when looking for ‘stuff’ being, “Can I draw with it? ” the promised, “Yes” is a resounding “No”. I could grumble more, but that would be base grumbling. What appeared to be a truth, was not: thwarted.
So that level of procrastination has been eating up what time I don’t have, when i should be concentrating on other things. It’s hard to be tough with yourself over motivation when you hung up petty on things like that. I should finished those pencils, but I want to ink and certainly need to colour all this digitally, therfore while I could, and should get this done, there a gaping ‘hole in the road’ to the next ‘step’.